Hello again all,
In the last couple of days I have accomplished living my life and not being randomly hit by a car-just saying it could be worse.  For the last couple of days I have wrestled with my two year, and spent time adoring my new baby girl.  I also accomplished vacuuming my living room, doing dishes, and cooking dinner.
When I was pregnant, and before; people always told me that having my children 2 1/2 years apart was ideal.  Since having my daughter I have come to find that is not the case.  I love my son, and during my pregnancy with my daughter my biggest fear is that I wouldn't bond with her the way I did my him, and that I might not love her as much as him.  From the day she was born I could look back at myself and almost kick her in the rump for even thinking such a thing. 
Having two children so close together is both a blessing and a curse.  My son of course has different interest-mostly these days playing on his tablet.  He is a very independent child when it comes to getting juice out of the fridge or grabbing some fruit to snack on, he even goes to the bathroom on his own when he isn't wearing a diaper.  However, he is very much jealous; although it is passing with each day.  My daughter mostly just lays here beside me enjoying tummy time and looking about the room cooing to herself as she so pleases.
I have come to find that most of the issues arise when my son who has been playing by himself comes up to me the moment I start pumping or feeding my daughter.  Its so hard not become frustrated because he demands my attention and if I don't give it at that very moment the whole world is going to en?d.  When I can finally give him a moment between breasts or lay my daughter down he is already done with me.
My biggest fear these days is that my son will lose interest in me as a playmate and someone he can count on because the moment he needs me I am unable to give him my full devotion.  I'm not sure how many of you have children close together, but I hope that as they grow older they older they understand that mommy wasn't ignoring them, or that they weren't unwanted because something new came into the picture.  I hope that in the next few weeks I am able to give my son the attention he needs and wants because I am better at time management or at least timing when he is going to want or need my full attention.
The blessing of having both of my children is the fact that however jealous my son is of his sister he is very much in love with her.  He is always asking 'where sissy?' or 'makin milk for sissy?'  He is always so kind and courteous helping out as much as he can and even giving her secret kisses when he thinks no one is looking.  I know that in the coming year I will get to watch my children grow together, look after one another and fight as siblings do.  It is something I very much look forward to since I was an only child. 
I would never take back having my children when I did.  I will cherish each and every day with both of them through the ups and downs and think to myself that its going to get easier.  I hope that all of you parents with two children can learn to accept that nothing is perfect and in the moment it all seems like its going to fail, but it won't and you will be ok.  Keep being the best parent you can be.